Yesterday I looked into Marshmallow's habitat and she was...acting strange. I alerted Benjamin to this fact and he checked on her, refreshed her water, and found some grubs to see if he could tempt her to eat. She seemed to perk up a bit and was hopping around for awhile. However, when we returned from our walk, we found Benjamin sobbing on the couch.
Marshmallow had died while we were out and Benjamin was, in Zoƫ's words, inconsolable.
Rather, she said, "I do not know how to console him. He is too sad for me to console."
He was quite sad, and is quite sad. And that's okay.
I believe it was Alexander who quipped that at least Marshmallow was in heaven now.
Benjamin rebuffed this attempt at comfort, telling us all that he'd "been to a website about how to help people after their pets die and one of the worst things to say is that they're in a better place so it's okay because it's not okay!"
"You're right," I said. "It's sad and it sucks."
I don't use that word terribly often, and neither did my mother, but I do remember that one time when something truly sucky happened, my mother had told me that there was really just no other word for it—whatever happened had just plain sucked.