Leaving behind five young children, and a grieving husband.
I'm so sad and angry that I hardly know what to say...except that this. is. not. over.
Why does everyone think this is over? Here's a series of questions (from various individuals at church) that I've had to answer this week:
- I would like to know how do you feel about having Activity Day in person. How comfortable are you for meeting in person? If you are not comfortable right now, when do you think you will be ready to meet?
- Parents - Will your children be coming to Primary? There is no pressure to do so, we just need to know numbers.
- Teachers - Will you return to teach in person? There is no pressure to do so, we just need to make sure we have enough teachers if we have kids returning.
- Please sign up for YW camp by May 2. Be sure to sign the medical waiver!
All the while it's "no pressure, no pressure, no pressure."
No pressure, but you're really dragging us down.
No pressure, but we'd really like to get back to normal.
No pressure, but we're all really getting tired of Zoom.
And I just...don't get it.
I'm so mad.
And I'm so sad.
I'm turning 36 this year.
I have five beautiful children.
I don't know how I feel about attending in-person anything right now.
That's a lie: I feel like "no, thanks."
I feel like if I had to choose between attending a Relief Society Ice Cream Social or remaining on earth with my children...I would choose...hmmmm...let me think...
(I totally understand that not everyone who gets this disease dies. But we also don't get to decide who lives and dies, do we? We don't get to say whether we get the mild version of the disease or whether we end up in the ICU with ARDS and then...slip away. So I think I will make the choice where I can make the choice, which is fairly early on in the timeline).
(I totally understand that people are tired of social restrictions and zoom meetings. That's something they like to bring up—that people are tired of zoom. But, like, I've been living this quarantine lifestyle, too, so...I get it. And yet, I still choose it over the alternative. So if you could mean "no pressure" when you say "no pressure," that would be cool).